Questions about understanding sexuality in males?

If a person is raised to believe that homosexuality is wrong because it insults your manhood and because there is fecal matter in your rectum. Also everyone is condemning it but you really don't know why besides the first to reasons that they are against it other than the fact that they are afraid of it because they don't want to belittle there manhood and its unflattering. What if you are the male specimen that is very aroused by sodomy and oral fixation and you have no arousal towards women at all. You are only aroused by sucking off grown men and anal play. Why deny the truth if its legal, it feels good, you cant help what you feel, and it seems unhealthy to deny basic body function. Being gay is obviously a genetic predisposition that can not be changed. Abstinence is the only cure and we are abstinent because we desire to "respect" our bodies however in abstinence you feel like a deprived piece of ****. So wtf is the issue because some people just like to feel good and dont give a **** what anyone thinks because if its legal they just want to bust a nut and enjoy the impulsel and say **** what anyone thinks I feel great. Are you really going to look differently on the abstinent mental whore who day dreams about sucking cock all day long and ******* black men for money or the person who just releases himself? what is the big deal because I miss my pleasurable nut even though you call it EE I feel like EE is better than a convulsion that gives me headaches and nausea and extreme boredom. Change is great if there was actual definite change. The change so far is crazy but ultimately the same and kind of annoying. whos to say a person cant be a man and have a pleasurable nut? Is it to much to ask that I get off correctly even if it is gay its better than twiching and hateing myself. You are telling me that if there was no women on this planet and you were stuck somewhere for an indefinite amount of time that you would not except the fact that maybe someone else of a different gender could not get you off. If I am here why dont I just feel good and enjoy myself because I am still a man... and that can come across in more ways than one. basucally I feel like I am just saying goodbye to my life here on this planet but if it turns out that I am staying here I wouyld rather have my nut and be happy than feel macho and "respected" and feel like **** all they time. I can abstain and be patient but im just saying... really? Your telling me if I stay here to never come again and what happens if my balls aren't fixed and I am still gay. if you leave me here with broken gay balls I would rather have those than none at all because orgasming is great. Like there is anything else on this planet left to do anyway. Thank god for tv or I would have shot myself by now. Have a great day signed the person who really just wants a resolution no big deal abstinence is okay however its kind of annoying because what if I break the only balls I will ever have? Without my balls on earth there is no modivation because there is nothing to distract me from the intense boredom of everyday life. Please don't break my gay balls if you dont plan on making it up to me. thank you. I am not saying I need straight balls I just want so balls to shot off. Im really bored and I am not picky its just a fun body functiuon thank you again